Hey guys. I figured I should at least post something again. I think it's been so long since I actually wrote a proper entry, both on my blog (if it's even considered active) or my personally diary. In that way, I guess I've lost touch of writing. Haha. I sound so sober, it's really not me. Not that I'm drunk or something half the time... but you know what I mean.

Umm, I really don't have much to say. I see my holidays coming to an end. It seemed only yesterday that I was rejoicing the fact that holidays - no matter how much I knew it wouldn't be much of one - were fast approaching. It honestly didn't feel like one to me. >.> I'm studying Monday - Friday since I did badly for my mid years. I can't even begin to describe how badly I did. Haha. Oh wells. I promise I'm gonna work so much harder now.

Anyways, I took my SAT on the 1st of June. Got it back on the 20th. Erm, I guess I did okay. Expected better but what can I do right? I guess I can re-take it but it's not like American universities are a serious option. UChicago (YAY!) sent me an e-mail but I don't think I'm gonna pursue it or anything. It's expensive and my parents aren't keen on me going far away to study.

To be honest, one of the reasons I wrote this entry was 'cause I'm putting off doing my ELL homework. HAHAHA. I guess I've started on it yesterday when I "brainstormed" some ideas... But... BLEAH. ~!@#$%^&*()_+

Erm, regarding my personal life, feelings, bleah, blah... What can I say? I mean sure, there are some areas where I want to see an improvement on, some areas where I'm actually working on, and some areas where I couldn't care less about.

All those just sounded sad/pissed off/neutral so I'm gonna end off with something SIMPLY FANTASTIC. The Hokkaido Fair is starting tomorrow!!! Until 7th July. Good food, great food, fantastic food, Did I mention the food? So anyways, if any of you are interested. It's at Isetan Scotts & Tampines Mall. :D

Okay, better get back to work. Until we meet again. :)

Right peeps. I've finally gotten my lazy butt around to scraping up some semblance of a blog entry. Updated my goals as well. Aren't I proud of myself? ;) Ok that was narcisstic. (자기애적 왕자) Note that's for future refence. I didn't become a fluent Korean-speaker overnight and neither do I foresee that happening in the future. Although in my defense, the fangirl in me has allowed me the ability to occasionally sprout the basic necessities.

Ok well, school's fantastic. Family's fantastic. Friends are fantastic. Everything is just dandy. LOL. No I ain't being sarcastic.

Achieved alot of things this week. Like finally borrowing the remaining Shopaholic books I've yet to get my hands on.

On the physical front, I do believe I'll pass my NAPFA this year. Gentle reminder that in JC, the passing mark is a Silver. (insert rage) So, why do I say that? Hehe. Aside from the ridiculous Standing Broad Jump, I've sorta gained confidence in my 2.4km and my sit-ups. Heh. So, we'll see how that turns out. :D

On the gaming front, (IKR she's finally playing again!) before you get all excited, I did go back to playing BUT I've since gone back to MIA-ing. Time to focus on 'A' Levels eh? It's quite silly how I clump 'A' Levels and gaming in the same paragraph, but ohwells.

Love life? Skip.

Erm, that's basically all for the nexttttttttttttttttttttttttttt few days weeks months years. I'm obsessed with the strikeout thingy! It's so kewl. Mr W's probably gonna make fun of me for that. Okay lovelies, ciao! xoxo

Edit: After reading my last post, I decided to stick around for another 2-3min and say that, yes Promos went well! :D I got promoted, got to retain my 4H2s and GUESS WHAT. I got a B for ELL and Maths! BBCDE. A step up from BBCEE for Mid-Years and a major leap from CA's Ds and Es and Ss and Us (it's too painful to remember.) People. Take. It. From. Me. Prepare in advance. I can't emphasize that enough. Consistency is key.

Well, let me see... Today would be the 16th of September, giving it a good few months since my last post. The reason I've decided to post again today would be well... to release stress. Which I realise was the purpose of my last post. Hah, I sound like an ELL student.

Anyway, to start off, I really need to get him off my mind. It's not doing wonders. Yesterday I tweeted something, and whether it's coincidence or not, he tweet something sort of related to what I tweeted. Complicated isn't it? Now the easier solution would be to flat out tell him, but of course, I'm not one for that. Haha, it appears I always seem to choose the harder solution. Look where that got me - a heart in constant turmoil. Anyway, we'll see how it goes right? Maybe he'll do something that'll finally give me closure. Let's hope it's soon. I haven't been hoping for a while now, but he made me want to believe in hope again.

That last paragraph sounded so sad and mature..

The next: Can you believe it's almost Promos??! It only seems yesterday that it was orientation. HAHA I'm turning 18 soon! But I digress. I really need to do well for Promos... That is, if I'm to be promoted AND continue with my 4H2s. Yeah I really want to continue with my 4H2s. I know it's kinda rare for me to post something like this but - God won't give us something he knows we won't be able to handle - so I'll just grit my teeth for now and continue mugging. I think it's been 2 weeks since I started my hardcore mugging... Although yesterday and today weren't really that productive. I promise I'll start again tomorrow - or today to be specific, just right after I sleep. Haha, no I'm not procrastinating. Needa get minimum all Cs for all my subs to be able to continue my 4H2s in next year in JC2. Nowhere to go but up in my case. I pray.

Gee something's wrong with me. That ended off really mature too. Did I somehow become more mature since I started this blog? I think I have. But that's not really the point now is it? It's kinda a given, you know, to mature. You eventually do, whether you like it or not.

Another thing I've kinda been stressing on (unconsciously that is) is the upcoming WASP interview on Friday. I won't talk more about it. Wouldn't wanna jinx it and all that.

Which reminds me!! I finally got my very own laptop!! I mean I sorta had one the last few months, but this time, it's really mine! Yay! We went to COMEX on the 31st of August, near closing time. It was the Fujitsu or the Lenevo. But when my father offered the Lenevo, it was a done deal baby! Never looked back... Although I have to admit the Fujitsu was a real looker. My mother was kinda disappointed I didn't pick the really "girly" one. Despite that however, she agreed mine didn't look that bad. HAHA. Gunmetal Gray~ Doesn't it sound cool?! Haha, love it! Shout out to my parents and sis. A big thank you! :D

Oh yeah... Been gaining quite a lot of weight. My friends are awesome - and they eat alot. What can I say? Ever since I started mugging though I started to eat less. Been eating 1 meal a day. Lol. But before you start lecturing me on anorexia, note that I do eat alot of snacks. Just today I wolfed down a box of Guylian chocolates my father won for a company dinner mini-competition. AWESOME! :D I absolutely ADORE Belgian chocolates. Kinda makes me wanna add Belgium to my list of "To-Visit" countries. Anyway, the good news is that I've gone back to my original weight, I think. Although the JC skirts are some sort of evil invention invented to highlight girls' worst body features. Tsk.

Doggy: Black labrador -> Golden retriever. It sucks. Makes him look so beng.

But I don't really care about him anymore (or do I?).

But really though, it was always him from the start, not Doggy. BUT! My mad blushing skills keep me from talking to him. I wish I really knew what's going on, but I can't, 'cause I'm too shy to even say hi to him now! All I can sort of manage is a (cha)grin when he nods at me. It sucks. What to do?

Okay, that's sorta my main problems for now, you know, besides the usual PW, schoolwork, life, friends, ..., etc. Hmph. My problems all seem very first-world, now that I think about it. Gotta do more good stuff for society. Just need to think about one way I can help. After all, every little bit counts right? :)

Just a quick rant, 'cause apparently it's better to let loose your emotions (is it the same as wearing your heart on your sleeve?) rather than bottle it inside of you. Well true, I know how that turns out, I mean, I wouldn't want to be a volcano.

First of all!!!! (I wanted to write it down sooner but I just didn't seem to have the time.) WAHAHAHA. Serve you right idiot sucker bastards. Feel the pain. Ok, that's all, keep feelin' it.

Second, it's funny how I still miss you after all this time. It's been what, 3 months since I last saw you. I miss you so much even though all I have left is the memories. I hope you right things, don't live life like that, you're worth so much more. ):

Third, so stressed. I don't feel like I'm putting in enough effort in school... My grades reflect so. ELL Test today didn't help. ._.

Fourth, I'm still sick. Even though I was running a fever yesterday, I still went through P.E today. And my NAPFA ain't that much better. What to do?!

Fifth, must stop thinking about ...

Sixth, today is Tuesday right? Scratch that, it's Tuesday night, which means it's gonna be Wednesday soon. Which means... 4 days till I see SUPER HANDSOME GUY again. Whee!~

Lol. Note: Eye candy does not equal guy who makes my heart beat like a jackhammer. (I don't know where that came from, must be me being too sick; still coughing)

Seventh, tomorrow is Chemistry CA. What am I doing? That's right. I'm writing.

Point number eight, I didn't even get to watch Point of Entry today = no handsome guy! :( (Is it even showing still?) Or The Noose. Never mind, next week. :D

Yup, that's basically all. I feel so much better already. =P Cya! :)

Note to self: Watch Hunger Games ASAP.

As B2ST once said, "Breathe in, breathe out". Wahahaha. Lol.

Anyway, I just wrote this so as not to break the cycle of my wonderful day.

I don't understand why I get jealous whenever I see it. I shouldn't be. Sigh. Anyway, that's pretty much all for my whining. (See? Told you my day was awesome. So awesome that the above mentioned sentence is considered something worth ranting about.)

Also, today was the 1st day of JC. Wahahahahahahaha. Let me tell you a story, which started yesterday.

Never mind forget it, I'm so tired I don't think I can stay awake long enough to write a decent lengthy essay.

30/01/2012
6.43a.m. Fell out of my bed after reading the title message "MOE:..."
Talked to A & F. Stalked people on FB & Twitter. Researched on CJC. Played some games. Stalked some more. Talked some more. Finally went to sleep later in the morning.
Woke up at around 2 p.m. if I'm not wrong.
Later that night: Freaked out to the point of spastic-ness.

31/01/2012
1.30a.m. Finally fell asleep.
5.00a.m. Woke up.
6.20a.m. Went to school.
7.10a.m. Boarded bus 966.
7.40a.m. Reached CJC.
4.20p.m. Reached Plaza Singapura lol to eat dinner.
8.40p.m. Finishing this "lengthy" blog post so I can sleep early.

Yup. Haha that's all. Expected more? Too bad. My patience just wore up not too long ago. Plus, I feel as if the words are swimming around. That's how tired I am.

Nights people! And remember to have fun and keep smiling. :D

All this time, I thought it was me. Only now, now, did I realise, that it was not I, but you. For someone who's suffered as long as I did, do you think I'd ever forgive you? Never. Not even if you apologise and grovel until your knees bleed. I never thought I'd hate someone as you.