Gahh! Can't you believe how scared I am?

 Right... So 'O' Levels is fast approaching and yet... Sigh. To be honest, I'm really pissed off. A part of me wishes that it's tomorrow so I can get it over and done it.

A lot of disappointment has occurred. My strong subjects have let me down. T_T Now I'm just going back on how it used to be. After all, don't fix what ain't broken right? (:




I actually just wanted to vent out my anger... Asta la vista!~ Hahahaha.

FML. My Prelim results suck. Suck suck suck. What now? Back to listening to Linkin Park.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

[Chorus:]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)

If there's one thing that I learnt today, it's that you shouldn't try to take on tech geeks head on. Nor does diplomacy seem to work on them. Let me tell you, these people are smart. They know what they're doing!

So here's the thing, I decided that I was gonna ask these pros to help me decide on a laptop. The result? Just showed how noob I am, about many things (read: graphic card, harddrive, processor speed etc.). On the bright side? I learnt so much more things the last 2-3 days from just 1-2 people combined compared to all the mugging I did the past week for my Prelims. Haha. These people are awesome! At least now, I've got my facts right (sort of, I still feel like I'm kinda swimming in the vast ocean). At least, I've straightened it. I've also learnt to accept defeat and not be afraid to show my ignorance. Haha. Seriously though, these people are my new idols. One more thing, they got me to reconsider buying a Mac. Although... how am I supposed to play Maple or Audition? Guess what, I can answer that! LOL. I Googled it, found out you can run BootCamp. See? Doesn't this just show how much you learn? Now I'm wondering if they can teach me Physics...

Also, I checked my stats counter... There's a sudden boost. O_O From the Russian region.. Ok. Cool! Здравствуйте! Anyways, I should really get back to studying for tomorrow's Physics Prelims Paper 1 (MCQ). So... Bye~

Right... So I was checking Twitter today (since I was so bored), and I realised that I haven't been updating my blog. So here's the thing. I'm updating it! Lol.

Actually there isn't much for me to say. Mainly because I can't possible remember some trivial thing that happened months ago! Especially since it's been 6 months since my last post.

Well... Here goes:

The other day, we celebrated Teachers' Day. [Happy Teachers' Day to all teachers! You've all been an important part of our lives! :D Thank you! (:] Wasn't it a humongous shock when I found out my sis was perfoming? In fact, before the performance, I was doing the face palm till my hand throbbed. Which was already hurting to begin with due to the Singapore Guiness Record for Mass Number of People Doing the Crab Walk. Yeah, TK Graduating Class of 2011's Class Gift. Haha, I kept laughing and falling on my butt. But I digress. Anyways, back to topic. Can you imagine how nervous I was before she started her dance?? Thankfully, A said my sis could dance. I relaxed visibly. Hehe. They did quite well. And who knew my neighbour could dance?!?!

After the thing, I went to TKGS bus stop since there was a wider plethora of buses I could take. Didn't realise that D, J, BG and B passed by till B said hi to me. Told F about J and she kinda freaked out.

When I reached B Interchange, I went to the library to return the books I borrowed which I didn't even bother reading. Then I went to find Aprilynne Pike books. She's awesome! You should read her books. I managed to find Spells and was desperately trying to find Illusions cause the computer said it wasn't on loan. I searched the whole of the first floor, even bothering to rummage around the random baskets. Yup, that's how desperate I was. In the end, I settled for staring at the space where the book should've been. Then, an idea popped into my head. I thought, "If it was me... where would I put it?" I realised that if someone had fully maximised their loan and yet wanted to borrow the book, they would hide it right? (I know, how cynical of me.) So I just pushed the books to the side and lo and behold! Illusions was sitting there serenely, out of the public's sight. How lucky of me. :D

Obviously happy with my treasure find, I decided it was time to head home. Upon boarding the bus, C called me and asked me to come back to our primary school since only she and S were there. Feeling extremely generous, I agreed and dragged myself to my primary school... Reminiscing about events that occured year(s) ago.

Let's skip the mundane parts (to me that is) shall we?

Since I'm bored and can't imagine maintaining my stamina in continuing to write this increasingly lengthy post, I shall just spare you readers the pain of reading through everything I've just written and more to come. I shall be a lazy bum and write in point form. Maybe (maybe!) if I suddenly decide to be more dedicated, passionate and (let's face it) hardworking, I'll edit it and form a reasonable paragraph with proper sentences.

What I did:
1. Saw & talked to Mr K
2. Took photo with 6E'07
3. Ate Mee Soup at the canteen (first time actually eating in my primary school, lol)
4. Talked with the remaining people (the others left)
5. Hung out with K, M & C at the exercise area near our primary school
6. Talked, laughed, watched K & M exercise?
7. Disturbed current P6 guys (one of them was EA's younger bro) [or vice-versa]
8. Accompanied K to eat fish soup at the shop near the road
9. C left, walked with K & M to M's house
10. Walked with K to the bus stop near the MRT station

Yup, after that I reached home and emo-ed. 'Cause of what happened at point number 10. Talked to E about it, shared our love stories, made something clear. Etc, etc. Oh, and before that, I finally got around to watching Running Man. Watched ep 30 & 22 with my sister. I just love Seung Ri & Siwon. I'm not sure if I'm gonna watch more episodes today.

Been emo-ing since then... T_T

Saturday went out with my mother. We went to the Borders' Clearance Sale at EXPO, bought nothing since it'd be just a waste of time to queue for such a long time (the queue snaked around the whole room). Afterwards ate at the Texas place which suspiciously resembled Popeye's. Went to Tampines and just walked around. (Reminder: Bring the POPULAR Membership Card). Went to B Interchange, went Sheng Shiong, then NTUC. Reached home, went to the hawker centre to buy chicken wings & hor fun.

That's all. Now I need to face the fact that I have homework left untouched (read: Biology & E Maths), subjects not studied (for the upcoming Prelims) and I'm losing my mind. Procrastination doesn't seem to help. We'll see. That's why I've decided that I'm gonna start tomorrow! With my HW at least. Then full on mugging the whole week!!

Yesterday, we went to H&M. The queue was so freaking long! Surprisingly though, we didn't queue up for as long as we expected and we were ushered into the building in no time. There were so many people. To be honest, I didn't know what to expect. In the end, it was a cross between New Look & Topshop I guess... But definitely cheaper than Topshop. [Forgive me if you think otherwise, but this is what I think.] Lol. Ended up buying a rainbow coloured sweater and cut-off gloves for my sister. We didn't really have the chance to try on alot of clothes since the queue for the fitting rooms were a mile long. Like heck am I gonna queue (& waste my time) for that long.

I'm not even gonna begin with today's lessons. So don't ask me. Although, a big shout out to Nicholas W for brightening up my day with your sweet message. You don't know how much it means to me. :D Spreading the love!~

Today I'm gonna finish reading Spells so I can finish Illusions ASAP so I won't be (what's the word...) compelled to read it halfway through studying in order to escape studying.

This post (& the new layout) should be enough to revive my blog lol. Also, check out my Tumblr
lol. Just created it today. :D Last but not least, I've also started becoming more active in Twitter social networking, so leave me a message wherever. I'm so proud of what I did. xD See you all soon! :D

Well, looks like this is my first post for 2011. XD I guess I've really been slacking. The truth is, I've been really busy. As in busy. My Sec 4 life is ____. I just saw slack fly out the window. To make matters worse, I'm getting really sick and tired of my horrendous grades. No matter. Recently, I've started to devote myself to learning, studying and revising. We'll soon see how that turns out.

As for my (non-existent) love life, I don't see it getting any better. Although, I think I'm making some progress, no matter how minute. Perhaps in the near future. (:

Anyways, let me tell you something very exciting that happened recently. On the 5th of March, Saturday if I'm not wrong, me, Celine and my mother were happily sitting on bus 222, when out of the blue, BAMM! I noticed this extremely cute (and tall guy) from my seat. He was standing near the road, waiting for the bus to open its doors and allow him to board. So of course, my roving eyes watched him like a hawk. Meanwhile, my mind was continually screaming "Doesn't he look familiar?? Where have I seen him before?". I think I met his gaze. I'm not really sure. By the time he walked back, I settled back into my fiddling with my phone, completely oblivious and ignorant of everything else. That was when I noticed Mommy laughing and giggling in the front. Upon questioning her, she continued giggling and started sms-ing. Being me, I figured she must be remembering something and telling Daddy about it. That was before, I received the sms, with the words "Si pathetico" or something of the sort. I promptly replied with a "Are you sure?" and she replied "Yes" to my horror! For the rest of the trip, I sat there hyperventilating and giggling while Cel just stared out the window emo-ing. Later on, when we got off at the MRT station, I sneaked a quick look at him. Hehe. To my dismay, I chanced upon what looked like an iPhone in his hand. I can't be certain for sure, for all we know, it may as well have been an iPod. Either way, it's been a long time since I sms-ed him so it doesn't really concern me that much. I then proceeded to eagerly tap my bus pass but realised too little to late that my card made a "toot-toot" sound with the beeper, while his made a "toot" sound. Argh! Fortunately, I quickly recovered from my embarrassment and dared to sneak peeks at him (he was walking behind us). After that, everything happened in a blur and he breezed past us, presumably to catch the train heading for Joo Koon (although I kept insisting he was heading for Pasir Ris - either way, we didn't find out) and no amount of attempts to catch up on our side were foiled by slacking commuters who refused to allow us to pass through. Or maybe it was because he walks quickly, after all, he has such long legs. Anyway, that was what happened. I spent the rest of the night (it was around 6.25pm when I saw him board the bus) talking about him and what could've been. We decided that it wouldn't be a good idea to sms him, after all, he's smart enough to piece two and two together. Also, Mommy made a cute comment. Hahahahahaha! She said if we two end up together, our baby would be very very cute. Hahahahahahahahaha! She said since both of our smiles were amazing, combining it together would form a baby that would make him/her seems as if he/she was always smiling. Hehehe. <3

Alright, that's all for now. I'm quite worn out after writing that whole load of stuff. Hehe. Another time yeah? =P [Everytime the yeah? thing comes out I think of him. xD - He said something like "I'll see you around yeah?"]

C & D = Smiling babies? Hahahahahaha! <3 (:

Happy New Year! (:

Hey everyone, I hope you may have a wonderful new year ahead of you! (: May God bless you and your family.

Just opened my new Twitter account. =P Gonna open a Hi5 account too, after I finish writing this. Hehe. Anyway, follow me on Twitter (carlenehilos)! =P

I wrote alot of New Year Resolutions. 12 mains and many more sub-topics. I think I shall add more later, once I've thought of it more. Hehe.

I'll update on my December holidays, another time. =P

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!! :D